Hey My Loves,
I miss writing! Life has been pretty busy, and I've finally got myself refocused on reaching some of my goals I want to accomplish. As we previously discussed I closed the chapter on my past, and now I'm dating.....
Guys I AM NOT a fan of dating lets juts be honest. I just want to be with that one person. I never wanted to be the dating type. I'd much rather go on dates with my person.
It's such a great feeling to be in a positive place. Knowing that I actually am excited to meet someone else. To be able to actually love someone who is devoted to loving me. Truthfully meeting someone I can vibe with and I'm attracted to is the worse. Sometimes I see people who I may be interested in but I FEAR REJECTION . I wouldn't know the first thing to say. Am I supposed to turn into one of those women who go for it and try to actually approach someone? I mean HOW in the world. I'm afraid to put myself out there.
I read something today that said "Don't search for love. It'll ruin the surprise". What do you guys think about that? It has me thinking. Maybe I should take things just a little bit slower. This could just be my season to continue trusting that everything I have been through was all apart of a plan. A plan for me to grow into the woman God has destined me to be. The women he needs me to be before I can actually bump into that person that God designed for me. Call it old fashioned but I still believe in being a hopeless romantic. I know I'll get my fairy tale ending. I'll just wait on it.
~Kai
